2:20 pm - Saturday, Jan. 26, 2002
Song:
I like to stare out the window
Maybe that�s a pointless thing to say in your mind
But not in mine
It has to stand for something more
It hurts to be in love
So you lie to yourself
But it feels so nice
You tell yourself it's love
Then you just can�t drop it later
I listen to songs over and over again
I hate when the radio plays the same song over and over
I don�t have a repeat button on my computer
I think I actually do have one in my heart
Because I just keep repeating
The same patterns
The same mistakes
Microsoft word automatically capitalizes the first letter on each line
Maybe I�m in a lower case mood
Maybe I�m always in a lower case mood
Seth is on his way over
I�m wearing pajamas and eating ice cream from the carton
And you know
I just don�t care
This is me
The only person I ever hate is me
I say I hate other people as a cover for that
I prefect the plastic smile
And I hate fake people
I hate when I am fake
Once again a cover
I hate wearing masks
And I hate going back on what I said because someone else doesn�t agree
And now, no one is disagreeing
And I�m still backtracking
I spend so much time back tracking
I never go anywhere but backwards
And I don�t like it there
I remember it
It didn�t work well for me
I want to face up to the future
But I just wont let myself
Ever heard the Song Breakfast at Tiffany�s?
It�s by Deep Blue Something
It has a line I relate to
I relate so much of my life to music
Why
And Kevin, who thinks music is SO important, doesn�t relate life to it at all
�I guess I was wrong
So what now
It�s plain to see we�re over
And I hate when things are over
And so much is left undone
And I said what about breakfast at Tiffany�s
She said I think I remember the film
And as I recall I think we both kinda like it
And I said well that�s the one thing we�ve got�
Yep
I love that song
I do hate when things are over
I hate when movies don�t tie up all the loose ends
But I hate sequels
And I don�t hate anything
I don�t even hate me
And I think I�m going to put on clothes and refreeze the ice cream
But one last thought
Why do I base my identity on weather or not I have a boyfriend?
-Megan-
