8:38 pm - Tuesday, Sept. 17, 2002
Song:
I'm no good. I'm getting that.
I'm no good at what I want to be. And I�m no good at being me. And now even I�m getting annoyed with me, that�s why I don�t have friends.
But I�m not hitting that because it�s stupidly melodramatic and nail polish black, teenager.
I�m just trying to figure out the point.
Drumming pain as I hit the keys. I don�t like to write anymore. I used to think I was good, but more and more I hate the words that flow as I drum. Drum, drum, drumming.
I feel constantly stupid. Oh well though. Win some and lose some.
Now I need motivation for what I call challenging homework, and I[�l wallow in the pain caused by Rahnia�s constant jabs that everything�s easier for her.
I don�t want it to get to me, so it won�t. I love her. So why bother.
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