5:11 am - Friday, Feb. 15, 2002
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Me and Chris Conversation:
chriss * porn * says:
sweet dreams... i'm glad things worked out
Three Bags Of Cookies, Two Days says:
me too
chriss * porn * says:
oh... your up... lmao
Three Bags Of Cookies, Two Days says:
whats your web page URL?
Three Bags Of Cookies, Two Days says:
Yeah, I'm awake, I really can't sleep...
chriss * porn * says:
http://www.angelfire.com/freak/-mechriss/
Three Bags Of Cookies, Two Days says:
is it just me, or is it when one things works itsself out, another drama begains
chriss * porn * says:
uh oh
Three Bags Of Cookies, Two Days says:
hummm?
chriss * porn * says:
what happened now?
Three Bags Of Cookies, Two Days says:
Adam insists in order for us to be friends I can't be with Richard... he's such an ass, he keeps trying to get me to choose between my boyfriends and him
chriss * porn * says:
that's not cool
Three Bags Of Cookies, Two Days says:
I agree
Three Bags Of Cookies, Two Days says:
Oh, are you proud of me? I stopped being lazy...
chriss * porn * says:
i saw i saw
chriss * porn * says:
*proud*
Three Bags Of Cookies, Two Days says:
I am so happy.. except I look like an elf
chriss * porn * says:
you kinda do... but it's cute
Three Bags Of Cookies, Two Days says:
it's an odd picture... I let Rahnia choose... and she chose the elf pic, she said I had to send it because it had the tiara... when i get a better one, I'll send it along
chriss * porn * says:
okays
Three Bags Of Cookies, Two Days says:
i'm sorry... I'm trying to smile and be me... it's hard... i know I sent you a really strange email earlier....
chriss * porn * says:
i never said anything about putting up a happy front...
chriss * porn * says:
i just wanted you to look at yourself in a mirror... or a reflection in a window...
chriss * porn * says:
and just smile at yourself
chriss * porn * says:
just for a moment..
Three Bags Of Cookies, Two Days says:
I'm trying chris... for you... I really am
Three Bags Of Cookies, Two Days says:
I don't see anything worth smiling at in the mirror.... I liked you alot better when you didn't know what I looked like
chriss * porn * says:
why?
Three Bags Of Cookies, Two Days says:
because I have no self-confidence about my looks, it made me feel better...
chriss * porn * says:
awww... i thought you were cute..
Three Bags Of Cookies, Two Days says:
thanks.... *small pathetic smile*
chriss * porn * says:
sweetheart... everything will be okay...
chriss * porn * says:
you're young... you're cute... the world is yours for the taking...
Three Bags Of Cookies, Two Days says:
I used to think that way chris
chriss * porn * says:
what stopped you?
Three Bags Of Cookies, Two Days says:
Things... guys....
chriss * porn * says:
megan... u are a great girl...
Rose Cora says:
I wish.... I like being great... I need love... Richard is really great to me... I need unconditional love though.... I need too much
chriss * porn * says:
what is there about you he wouldn't love?
Rose Cora says:
Too much drama in my life.... it drives alot of people crazy
chriss * porn * says:
and what is causing this drama?
Rose Cora says:
Adam....
Rose Cora says:
Richard is willing to deal with drama.... he hates that I let Adam have so much control over my life.... I hate it too.... I just don't knwo what to do
chriss * porn * says:
you have to take adam's control away
chriss * porn * says:
what gives him the right to tell you what conditions your friendship will be under?
Rose Cora says:
I spent so much time basing who i was on his acceptance... he knows it... he crys too much... sometimes I just want to hit him for crying... is that evil?
chriss * porn * says:
just because you based who you were on him before doesn't mean you should be doing that now...
Rose Cora says:
I know I shouldn't... I really knwo I shouldn't... I'm trying... I'm trying so hard... *Tears Of Frustration*
chriss * porn * says:
don't cry, sweetheart...
chriss * porn * says:
how long did you two date?
Rose Cora says:
adam and me?
chriss * porn * says:
yea
Rose Cora says:
A yeasr and half
Rose Cora says:
*year
chriss * porn * says:
i think you need to separate yourself from him...
Rose Cora says:
I do too... but he and ronnie are friends... it feels wrong... he used to be my best friend.... *more tears, more frustration* .... i'm tottaly breaking down.... I don't even know what I'm doing anymore
chriss * porn * says:
breathe...
chriss * porn * says:
start with that...
Rose Cora says:
breatheing
chriss * porn * says:
okay...
Rose Cora says:
in... out...... in.... out.... yep, I know how to do this still
chriss * porn * says:
that's good
chriss * porn * says:
okay... now...
chriss * porn * says:
who are you...
Rose Cora says:
Megan Rose _____
chriss * porn * says:
wow... you're the first person that's every actually answered the right answer the first time..
Rose Cora says:
it's my name, it's my identity.... I finnaly dropped the, Megan, Adam's Girlfriend.... I guess I'm Megan, Richards Girlfriend.... but i think I'm more... Megan Rose ____, Keeper of Richard
chriss * porn * says:
you're megan... 15 year old girl from portland... has a boyfriend... but for the sake of who megan is... isn't too important in the grand scheme of things...
chriss * porn * says:
you're megan... cute girl who loves... uhhh... damn... i forgot what animal... but i think you have a poster of a dolphin... but i know that's the wrong animal that you love
Rose Cora says:
I love Elephants
Rose Cora says:
And I have a poster of Josh Harttnet
chriss * porn * says:
*was waaaay off*
chriss * porn * says:
lmao
Rose Cora says:
*Smiles... slightly*
chriss * porn * says:
you're megan rose _____... a totally sweet girl...
chriss * porn * says:
one that i'm glad is my friend
chriss * porn * says:
one that is on my list of people i lugg to death...
chriss * porn * says:
*luff
chriss * porn * says:
bad typo...
Rose Cora says:
yeah... pretty bad... you're glad i'm your friend, really?
Rose Cora says:
you consider me a friend?
chriss * porn * says:
yeah
Rose Cora says:
you're sweet
chriss * porn * says:
not as sweet as you..
chriss * porn * says:
but megan... you are great... you are..
Rose Cora says:
thank you chris... thank you for always being there for me... beacuse without you... my life would be missing alot
chriss * porn * says:
you don't have to thank me...
chriss * porn * says:
although now i feel bad cuz i'm not gonna be online for the next week...
Rose Cora says:
Thats alright... If I don't learn how to take care of myself.... I wont make it thorough life... you wont always be here
chriss * porn * says:
i'll try to be here as much as i can for you...
Rose Cora says:
But when I'm thirty... you wont always be there.... if at all
chriss * porn * says:
hmmm...
Rose Cora says:
pondering that?
chriss * porn * says:
when you're thirty there will probably be like... cool stuff like... holographic video phones and stuff
Rose Cora says:
Sure... and I'm sure you and I will still be in touch
chriss * porn * says:
u never know..
Rose Cora says:
that would be really great
chriss * porn * says:
you never know where life'll bring ya...
chriss * porn * says:
trust me... i have had some wierd things happen to me..
Rose Cora says:
like what?
chriss * porn * says:
hell... i mean... you and i are friends... and uhhh... how exactly did you find my diary?
chriss * porn * says:
i mean... it was like... a chance encounter... and i bet that reading my diary one night when you were bored would end up with us talking almost nightly...
chriss * porn * says:
ya know?
Rose Cora says:
I found your diary by searching for something....oh, people who like Dogma
chriss * porn * says:
ooh...
Rose Cora says:
and I liked it, and I only read it because it was the first I found without a fancy layout, and I dunno, I wanted to read one without a fancy layout that night....
chriss * porn * says:
ooh... should i change my layout back to normal now?
Rose Cora says:
No... I like your layout... it was just that night I decided only to read diarys with basic diaryland supplied backgrounds
chriss * porn * says:
oh...
chriss * porn * says:
are you any good with html?
chriss * porn * says:
cuz i'll show you where i got that layout
chriss * porn * says:
but you have to know a little html to put in your own pictures and stuff like that
Rose Cora says:
no, I knwo nothing of html.... I've been online since 4th grade, yet i never learned...
chriss * porn * says:
you want the link to the site i got it from?
chriss * porn * says:
well here... you can have it anyway
chriss * porn * says:
http://quinn.andrealand.com/templates.html
Rose Cora says:
I'll go and see
chriss * porn * says:
k
chriss * porn * says:
she has a lot of different templates
Rose Cora says:
Yeah...
Rose Cora says:
But i dunno, what if some carzy gal has the sudden urge to read a diary with a plain layout?
chriss * porn * says:
:0
chriss * porn * says:
oop...
Rose Cora says:
You know.... you got me smiling again
chriss * porn * says:
i'm just cool like that...
chriss * porn * says:
chriss * porn * says:
actually... my smile is more dorky like
chriss * porn * says:
except the one in my porn star pics... those ones i'm like "hey... whassup pretty camera"
chriss * porn * says:
lmao
Rose Cora says:
lol
Rose Cora says:
yeah... you'd make a really great porn star...
chriss * porn * says:
uhhh...
chriss * porn * says:
no
chriss * porn * says:
what's rose cora?
Rose Cora says:
Oh... my middle name and street name
chriss * porn * says:
ohhh...
chriss * porn * says:
cool
Rose Cora says:
not really
chriss * porn * says:
mine would be james 220th...
chriss * porn * says:
mine doesn't work as well..
Rose Cora says:
well... mine would really be Rose 45th so i chose my cross street.... actually my cross street is holgate (rose holgate, eww) i chose the street I live closest too.... wow... i ramble too much
chriss * porn * says:
mine would then be... james 84th...
chriss * porn * says:
my lil town doesn't have fun street names
Rose Cora says:
My little town didn't used to, but I think someone got bored one day and decided to name them all
chriss * porn * says:
cool cool
Rose Cora says:
thats what i would do if i had a town
chriss * porn * says:
i would name all my streets after letters...
chriss * porn * says:
but wierd combinations..
chriss * porn * says:
like... in las vegas... there's a street called "zzyxy"
chriss * porn * says:
do you have yahoo instant messenger?
Rose Cora says:
yes
chriss * porn * says:
do you have speakers on your computer?
Rose Cora says:
yes
chriss * porn * says:
ooh ooh ooh... what's your yahoo name?
Rose Cora says:
meekiefreekie
chriss * porn * says:
is your yahoo turned on?
Rose Cora says:
yep